Friendliest-of-People,
How are you? I am fine.
Well, I started this blog intending to update you on how it feels to be starting the social transition process, but…
…it is hard to write about transitioning w/out going into things like gender dysphoria, childhood memories, mental gymnastics, suicide attempts, dropping out of society and dropping back in…
…now that I'm "on the path" I don't really want to go into all that stuff again. I've told you all my stories about suicide and gender dysphoria and mental gymnastics. You can go searching for them in this fabulously encyclopedic blog if you care to!
My memories are not to be feared or forgotten, but they are no longer to be combed through for their hidden nuggets. Been there, done that, found the nuggets!!
I just wanted to tell you that today marks my one-year anniversary of being Vin. He came to me last year, a brand new alter, and unlike some of my male alters of the past, I knew he was ME in male form.
And he is happy to be me, and I am happy to be him! That hasn't been the case w/ some of the other male alters & it got pretty ugly at times.
Also I wanted to say that even though I am not the kind of guy who would limit his wardrobe choices to "only acceptable manly attire", I am choosing to relinquish my entire feminine wardrobe to my mannequin (and good friend) PEARL.
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| We got Pearl in Dec '12 at Sarasota Architectural Salvage. She used to work at Maas Bros. |
Fashion--the versatility of the female wardrobe--was one of the only fun things about being a girl. I have heard & read that a lot of transguys miss their more ample fashion choices after they transition. I thought I was the only one who would feel that way.
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| She is "well-armed" with great personality and acting skills |
Luckily I have Pearl to act as my fashion ambassador. If I ever miss femme stuff while I'm trying to hone my masculine presentation, I can call on Pearl to model for me. She never says no. You can see she has inspired many photo shoots.
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| She inspires me in many ways |
One thing I will not relinquish is my collection of colorful corduroys (I have every color including chartreuse, peacock and raspberry: ))
I will always wear my cords. They make me think of the 60s and 70s, and somehow I think of those as "better times" than the 2010s. (Even though they weren't : ))
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| She is a great dance instructor |
So…no cords for Pearl…but she's such a girly-girl she'll be thrilled to wear dresses and lingerie every day!
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| She was our Winter Solstice Mascot one year |
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| We're practically twins. That dashiki she's wearing was purchased in L.A. by Moonchild's mum right around the time of the Manson murders. Also, those are black cats on the red dress above--in case you can't tell. |
Pearl has been a great addition to our non traveling roadshow. She gives a un-animated feminine abidance to our spaceship. I am very happy that you are finding yourself and that you struggle less and less with your place in this world. I believe your word, art and music help you sort through what has happened, what is happening and what is to come. Pearl is part of that process as are we all. Vin is who you are now and in someway always have been. As we become more spirit our physical being becomes less relevant. We need these meat sacks to live on this level of existence, but as we find our true selves these definitions are less meaningful. Be your head has new meaning and through the looking glass is more a spiritual journey than a child's story. White Rabbit or Red Quean it matters not in the end or for that fact in the beginning. It is all about the story we make and we choose what characters we play.
ReplyDeleteThis is the now and it is time to strip away pretense and embrace our true selves.
Moonchild